What does this mean for me?

I made the decision to pursue the Discovery College idea, but I didn't make the decision alone.
Here comes the first of the career/gender conflicts...
I got married (to a wonderful human being) in June of this year, and that meant that this decision would hugely affect him too.
Before making the commitment to find out how feasible my mad idea was, I first needed to check with my partner how he felt about it.
We had been talking about having a child before he turned 35, just 5 short years away at the time, but with this project on the horizon the timeline would be impacted.
We started doing some maths...
If it would take potentially a full year to secure funding and even initiate the project (say all of 2019) and then, with it being my brainchild, a further 4 years minimum to get the model embedded and the future of the service secured we're looking at 2024 before I could justifiably consider maternity leave. The idea of taking up to a year off from a project I've initiated and led at such a pivotal time would feel a betrayal, so pushing back my family priorities for a couple of extra years seemed non-negotiable if this was going to work.
My now-husband, Iron Maiden t-shirt-wearing and leaning against the stove in our kitchen, considered this for a moment while he poked at the onions sizzling in the frying pan. Ultimately, he said it was fine; that I should pursue this if I felt so passionately about it, and he believed in it, and me, 100%.

I felt reassured, but also frustrated that I had had to choose and prioritise - delaying our fledgling family decisions to allow space for my professional identity to grow.
It's something that I hear frequently from my female peers - when at work they feel guilty for leaving their family unattended, when at home they feel they're neglecting their work. Many brilliant women I've known have had their careers take a real stumble when they leave to have a baby, and part-time arrangements can be hard to come by.
The Discovery College was not only igniting me, it was raising in me tensions that I didn't even know existed...